A week ago, my grandpa had a severe stroke. It hasn't effected me like it has my mother but it has definitely slowed me down. I also watched friends struggle this week with finances, chronic health issues and child custody drama. Needless to say all these events have had me thinking about life and what is really important. What made my grandma survive this week? The support of her children. What got my friends through their trials this week? Support from friends and family. People are really what make life worth living.
This week I also reflected upon some of the happiest times in my life.... I had a really happy childhood and teenage years. Why? I had very supportive parents and close groups of friends. I also had amazing roommates in college and had good times with them. People have been there during the happiest moments. Now I am going to go out on a limb here and I know its extreme but I'm just thinking. I may be right and I may be wrong. I don't think monogomy is the healthiest structure for adults. After being married a couple years, I found myself in a catch 22 way of thinking, I knew my husband sincerely loved me but I didn't feel loved like I did when I was young. People need people and I've come to realize that one person may not be able to provide enough love for anyone to feel loved. How unfair it was for me to expect John to provide me with all the emotional and social support I needed. I would guess that a lot of people find marriage can be lonely too. Everyone says that marriage is what you are supposed to do, especially in Utah. They tell you that marriage is hard but worth it, leaving out the reasons why its hard. Its hard because it is not natural... people need people. I would also argue that some people can find a lot of satisfaction in marriage because they also have a lot of family and social support outside of marriage. I am saying that clicks are natural because people need people. I am not saying that there isn't a need for a deep, long term, loving relationship because I think that there is but I don't think it is enough to really make people happy.
